Monday, April 11, 2011

What is Normal?

I feel bad, bad that I don’t feel bad today.

I feel OK.

Not great, not ready to skip down the street singing show tunes, but OK.

I am not distressed, not crying, not unable to get up and out of bed.

This morning I made my own coffee and breakfast. Haven't done that in a few days.

I am not smiling, not happy.

I am in physical pain, but still not really sure what I feel in my head and my heart. I kind of don’t feel anything.

I feel like working, or going for a walk.

I don't feel like sitting in the house anymore thinking, watching endless TV trying to keep my mind busy.

I don't feel like cleaning or doing laundry as a distraction from reality.

Is this the numb feeling I keep reading about? Is this normal? What is normal for this process, is there any normal?

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