Thursday, August 27, 2009

I Figured It Out!

I have come to a realization as to why my weight is being a bitch.

When I shed 10 lbs earlier this year, I am now convinced it was because of one major change I had made in my life:


Sure I worked out a bit, but at the end of the day it was the lack of Mary Jane and hence the lack of munchies that I am sure is what shed the weight and inches.

And since I have re-quit smoking I have already lost 4 lbs!

Now of course, that could just be water and bloating leaving my system as I have been cycling, but whatever, weight it weight and the way my pants fit is all I care about.

Let's hope this keep up and I see even better results once I start back at the gym tomorrow.


Sunday, August 23, 2009

Take a Hike

Going for a hike today - I figure its a good way to start getting back on track with the fitness issues ....

P and I are about to head off to Squamish to take on The Stawamus Chief, a 2,000-foot plus granite monolith off the Sea to Sky Highway.

I've been wanting to do this since I moved here and nows the time.

Let's hope I make it

Thursday, August 20, 2009

What is Binge Eating Disorder?

Binge Eating Disorder is characterized by compulsive overeating in which people consume huge amounts of food while feeling out of control and powerless to stop.

A binge eating episode typically lasts around two hours, but some people binge on and off all day long. Binge eaters often eat even when they’re not hungry and continue eating long after they’re full. They may also gorge themselves as fast as they can while barely registering what they’re eating or tasting.

The key features of binge eating disorder are:

  • Frequent episodes of uncontrollable binge eating
  • Feeling extremely distressed or upset during or after bingeing
  • No regular attempts to “make up” for the binges through vomiting, fasting, or over-exercising.

People with binge eating disorder struggle with feelings of guilt, disgust, and depression. They worry about what the compulsive eating will do to their bodies and beat themselves up for their lack of self-control. They desperately want to stop binge eating, but they feel like they can’t.

According to the National Institutes of Health, 2 percent of all U.S. adults suffer from compulsive overeating—making binge eating disorder more common than bulimia or anorexia.

Unlike other eating disorders, which primarily occur in women, binge eating disorder also affects a significant number of men. Binge eating usually begins in late adolescence or early adulthood, often after a major diet. But most people don’t seek help until much later when weight gain from their binge eating is causing health problems.

Emotional Eating and Food Addiction

It’s common to turn to food for comfort: unwinding after a long day with a hot bowl of soup, for instance, or digging into a pint of Rocky Road after a fight with your significant other. But when eating becomes the main strategy for managing emotions and dealing with stress, it can develop into an unhealthy and uncontrollable food “addiction.”

Signs of Emotional Eating

Using food to:

• fill a void in your life
• feel better or cheer yourself up
• calm down or soothe your nerves
• escape from problems
• cope with stress and worries
• reward yourself

People with binge eating disorder suffer from this psychological food addiction. Like the alcoholic that can’t say no to a drink, they can’t say no to food. Often, their binge eating is triggered by a depressed or anxious mood, but they may also overeat when they’re tense, lonely, or bored. They eat to feed their feelings, rather than their bodies.

The problem is that emotional eating doesn’t solve anything. It may be comforting for a brief moment, but then reality sets back in, along with regret and self-loathing. Emotional eating also leads to problems of its own—including weight gain and obesity.

Unfortunately, weight gain only reinforces compulsive eating. It’s not that people with binge eating disorder don’t care about their bodies; they agonize over their ballooning weight. But the worse they feel about themselves and their appearance, the more they use food to cope. It becomes a vicious cycle: eating to feel better, feeling even worse, and then turning back to food for relief.


Back to the Begining

Well I'm back to being fat.


Its not like I don't know how it happened ... I know exactly how it happened.

Its called eating crap and sitting on my ass.

I think I have to admit that I have may have a binge eating disorder and some serious body dysmorphia issues at play here ...

Like last night: I binged on 2 MASSIVE Big City cupcakes and 2 bowls of Cherrios - AFTER eating a big roast beef dinner with potatoes, Brussels sprouts, corn, peas, carrots and gravy ...

Motivation is gone - Depression is kicking in ...

I have to shake this off and get moving again ....

Is this the way its always going to be?

Me, fighting my body and eating issues for the rest of my life, only to reach a goal and then fall off the deep end and end up back where I started?

I don't remember it being this hard before ... Before I was able to just DO IT.

A friend recently commented that maybe I should have my thyroid checked, or that maybe I just need to realize that now since I'm over 30, that this war is now just going to get harder and harder ...